2 lb weight gain!!! Yikes!!

Well Fridays are my weigh in days and today unfortunately I gained 2 lbs. First time gaining since Last December so it was a little downer but I am feeling better. I always say to not dwell on things and so I am going to take my own advice. I just wanted to share that even with surgery you can gain and you can mess up and you just have to learn from it and move on. I know I have been eating crap and carbs so I know what I need to do to get back on track. I found myself this morning at the gym bored as hell on the bike during my workout. I am hoping that my foot is healing and on the 2nd I get some good news and can at least start on the Elliptical again cause this is getting old real fast. I am suppose to start back with Zumba on the 11th and will be so upset if I can't. I love Zumba. So much fun and something I can do with the girls that is active. I am looking forward to today being over because I go on vacation for 11 days no work. Awesome!!! I can't wait time to organize at home clean out the junk in my cabinets and go shopping and spend some quality time with my babies!! I miss them so much through out the year. It is not easy being a mom and working full time. I get about 3.5 hours with them each day and It just isn't enough. I swear they grew up way too fast. This is why I get up at 4:30 almost every morning to go workout because I am not taking time away from them I can workout with no guilt and love that. And they get the best me in the morning and at night, well most of the time. It isn't easy balancing everything but I do my best and hope along the way I am not neglecting anyone.

Holidays & New Years Resolutions!

So the holidays are over. I made it but not happy with how I handled myself. Thanksgiving was actually worse than Christmas. I know I ate way too much of the bad stuff but I continued to exercise so I didn't gain anything but still feel pretty horrible. Out of 3 feast of nights I only got sick to my stomach one of them by eating too much. The other 2 nights I just used the cardinal rule- PROTEIN FIRST and didn't end up eating too much after that. The ham and turkey on Christmas was so good I really didn't want any of the bad stuff after that. So I have brushed myself off and am starting to crack down now. Today is a new day and I will not dwell on what is in the past!! I actually woke up this morning and went to workout on very little sleep but did it and feel pretty good about that. It did help knowing my Trainer would be there. I am not too sure I would have gone otherwise. It is nice having to be accountable to someone instead of just yourself. This is one thing that has helped me through this winter so far. Thankfully we don't do anything huge for New Years! It is my daughters 10th birthday this year so we may go out for dinner or do something like that but I always order salmon or something healthy when we eat out. It isn't hard for me to eat out healthy! That is one thing I have gotten really good at. So the fun of the New Year's and all the resolutions people make. I know the one I have had for the last 13 yrs has been lose weight. Well 2013 has been successful with that one. So here goes my list of New Year's Resolutions/ Goals list
1. Volunteer this year
2. Run in 5 5k's
3. Start and stay on budget
4. Go to Great America
5. Plan a date night 1x a month
6. Get more involved in the girls School
7. Karaoke Night

5 months Out and Odd's and Ends

So even with my foot I have been able to ride the bike at the gym and keep doing my weights. Today I really cranked it out on the Bike and was sweating just as much as if I was on the Elliptical. I did HIIT on the bike did 60 rpms and then up to 100 rpms and so forth. Did that for 45 mins. I refuse to give up and make this stall me in weight loss and progressing further. I am determined to get these last 4 lbs off before January 1st. So that I can say I lost 100 lbs in 2013!!!! I can do it!!
I am getting a little bored with my eating. I pretty much eat the same things every week and I am needing some new ideas. Right now my breakfast is a protein drink, snack in morning is almonds, lunch is turkey burger w/cheese, snack in afternoon is cheese stick and hummus or edamame, dinner is meat and veggies, sometimes night time snack not all the time and it will be edamame or cheese stick. I haven't really added fruit in because when i did i stopped losing the weight like before. I also stopped sneaking carbs. I was finding myself slipping too much.
Monday is my 5 month surgeryversary I can't believe 5 months have gone by. It has been a whirl wind of a time. I have learned alot about myself in these past 5 months. I definately have an issue with emotional eating and have mourned some of my most famous foods that I would indulge in. I have also learned that this process isn't easy for my husband either and I have to be open minded about what he is going threw at this time too. I still have issues with stopping myself from eating when I feel full. I don't know if it is because I still can't tell when Im full or that I just don't want the good food to end. It is a battle I am working on to fix. As of Friday I have lost 61 lbs since surgery and a grand total of 96 lbs total. Only 23 lbs away from under 200 which I never thought I'd see again in my life time. I can't wait. I feel great and know that with every lb gone I will feel even better. Can't wait to see what the next 5 months bring!!!

Injury worse than I thought!

Well wasn't turf toe like I thought. I actually broke a bone in my foot!! WTH I guess thats what I get for thinking I was Wonder Woman and skinny already. I guess my foot couldn't handle all this !!! Just kidding I definately think new shoes are in order and some extra foot support. I refuse to stop I still want to hit 5 5k's this year and maybe a 10K. But it's now based on how my feet handle it. Silly feet. So now I am in a special shoe and will be for a while. Great. But I went to the gym today and tried the bicycle and was able to fit the shoe in the strap so it will now be my mode of cardio for a while. But I really need to find something to help with my butt hurting so bad. Before I had so much padding it never hurt when on the bike , now I am in pain within 15 mins. No fun!! Hoping it gets use to it and just toughens up... Did my weights too so I still have those two. I have got back on track with eating this week and lost 2 lbs. Time to get serious again NO MORE EXCUSES!!! Things with the hubby have gotten better a few rough weeks but we have passed those and gotten stronger. He has officially lost 35 lbs since October and I am so proud of him. Working out still with the Trainer and things are going good. Thank god I have him right now because I would think I couldn't do anything and I would sit at home all depressed. Christmas is almost here and I am stressed . I still haven't started shopping and have to do it this weekend in snow storms. Great!!! Well looking forward to my vacation in a week! Can't wait!!

Injuries!!

The joys of injuries. The good news is my knee is back to normal the bad news is my big toe on my left foot is so painful right now. And yesterday my right ankle started to bug me. It is the price I am paying for having crappy gym shoes. The toe is the worst having a really hard time walking on it. I have a doctors appt on Wednesday so we shall see what is up. I got some sports tape so I can wrap my big toe and see if that helps. I am a big advocate of WebMD symptom checker and it seems that I may have Turf Toe. It is where you hyper extend the ligament in the toe from usually running or extreme sports. I noticed a little pain in it while training for the 5k and ever since the 5k it has been getting worse. No good!! Everytime before I would get injured and then fall back into my trap of over eating and emotional eating. This is why I am so happy I had the sleeve done because it is not possible to do that. My stomach wont let me eat that way anymore. I have to stay positive and break through this another reason I am so happy i have a trainer too. Because he will know what I can still do with these injuries so I don't have to neccessarily stop all together. Weighed in this morning and have lost 2 lbs this week putting me at 225. I was surprised cause this week exercise has been lacking and eating has been off a little. But I am so happy and I am now 7 lbs away from 100 lbs gone forever. And my new tattoo!!!