What is this TABATA you speak of??? ....LOL

Well things are going well my motivation is coming back. I have a 5K on the 30th so I finally got out and ran outside. Man it is so different then on the treadmill. My breathing is all over the place and I think I am running faster so it is harder. I ran from my house to my parents what would have been 3 miles turned into to 4 because I dropped my house key during the run and had to retrace my tracks to find it. Thankfully I did find it and from now on I will be bringing my bulky keys with and just straping it to my bra like I use to. I felt great after the run though, not too worn out and a little hyper. Now the day after my hip was bothering me ALOT! I had to use Bengay which I am in love with now cause damn it works good. I have been talking about getting new shoes for a while but no more talking I am out next weekend to get them. I won't be able to use them for this 5K but at least I will have them for the next one. I am amazed how well my knees have been holding up, not much pain in that area which is what I was worried about. I had set a goal to do 5  5k's this year. 1 will be down on the 30th and I think there is one in April I want to do but still not sure. I know May is packed I have one on the 10th with my daughter and one on the 17th. So 3 down, now I have to search for some in the summer. Ok so on to the title of this post.....
TABATA heard about it but never tried it until today. If your not familiar with it , it is High-Intensity interval training three to ten reps of high intensity exercise followed by medium intensity exercise for recovery. For example my trainer had me do squats with the kettlebell 8x's -each was I think a min and 1/2  and then elliptical for 2 1/2 mins. Then medicine ball throws and run on treadmill... etc. Awesome workout but hard as hell. I know I will be feeling it for a few days. I hope to do many many more of those cause I was dripping sweat. I then tried to run/walk the treadmill and that was funny cause my legs felt like they weighed 800 lbs so it ended up being walking mainly. I will make up for it tomorrow morning. I can tell I wasn't running right either cause my shins are sore. So back on track trying to stay motivated and staying on track with food. I have another goal in place 40 lbs gone by August. I know I can do it and will crush it!!!   

Back with my Trainer!!

So my husband is the best and got me more sessions with my Trainer. I had my first session this morning and I am already feeling it!!! Yipee!! I know I am crazy when I am happy to be sore!! It is amazing the added motivation that comes with having a personal trainer. I know its not cheap but it is so worth the $. I always thought I can motivate myself and I can do this myself. But it is alot harder to do that then I thought. Accountability is such an important key in weight loss. Ive come to realize that. Yesterday I had counseling , which by the way is going very well. It is out in Joliet so I got out there about a 1/2 hour early. I always pass this really cool trail and decided to stop and take a walk since the sun was shining and it wasn't horribly cold. The trail wasn't plowed so I was walking through the snow which was just as bad as walking on sand. But man was it a great walk. 
 I am stressing a bit today because my youngest has her ballet recital on Saturday and tomorrow night is her dress rehearsal and there is so much that needs to be done. I suck at doing hair and she has to have it pinned and all fancy. I still don't understand why I was blessed with girls. I was such a tomboy and still to this day have no idea how to do my own hair. I am looking forward to the recital but I am also looking forward to it being over. On top of all that stress I am also stressing because last weekend she didn't do well with the first trial run and ended up running off stage hysterically crying and wouldn't dance. It just make me nervous for her and how she is going to handle the real thing. It should be interesting.

Feeling better!

Last week was rough but I am feeling better this week. My husband surprised me last week and told me to start training again. He is such a great guy!!! He is realizing how much it did motivate me to keep working. So I am so excited and can't wait. I also cleaned the house crazy on Sunday so that always makes me feel better. Plus I love spring and it is coming!!! Last week I went back to basics on my eating and kept track of everything and started weighing and measuring again . It worked cause I dropped the 2 lbs I gained and an additional pound. Very happy about that. I just have to keep on keeping on. We all have our moments it is what we do after those moments that really matter!! I am not giving up and will continue to better myself. My daughter started her Girls on the Run last week, which is a program at school that they train for a 5k and learn how to socialize better and build their confidence and self worth. I will be doing this race with her this year. I am so excited, I remember last year sitting at the finish line waiting for her and her Dad uncomfortable and tired. Not this year I will be crossing that line with her. Can't wait! I have a week off at the end of the month for Spring Break with the girls, I am looking forward to that. We are redecorating both of the girls bedrooms and they will be officially in there own rooms. It will be a fun and busy week!!!

Back and Forth....Positive/Negative

Wow I am beginning to torture myself. LOL I will be positive for a few days and then be hit with a swarm of Negative. I am driving myself nuts. I wish I had brain surgery at the same time as my sleeve. Cause this is so hard. I feel like my devil and angel on my shoulder are working overtime right now. I haven't worked out in 4 days and I feel it has alot to do with what is going on in my head. I set my alarm Sat and let it go off until I shut it off, I set my alarm Monday and turned that sucker off right away and that was because I was up till Midnight , and again I set my alarm Tuesday and snozzed it until snooze wasn't an option anymore and it just shut off. I need something to get me motivated again. To get me back on track , to help me out of this rut. I signed me and my husband up for a 5K at the end of the month thinking that would do it and naw not really. Don't get me wrong I am excited about it but it isn't making me get up in the mornings. I don't know anymore. I just need to stop screwing around and JUST DO IT!!! I am not threw with this journey I am not to my goal yet. Something has to give!!!