Personal Trainer

Let me just say I love my Personal Trainer. He is kicking my butt and pushing me. I am doing things I never thought I would be able to do and feeling awesome. I went on 10/12 for my free session signed up with him on 10/17 and have been seeing him every Monday and Thursday. So- 4 real sessions under my belt. I have learned I hate Burpee's and Bear Crawls but I have also learned how good they are for me. So it is a love/hate relationship. I think he was a little easy on me the first week cause he really pushed me hard on Monday. I was literally feeling like my chest was going to pop. It was only for a few mins but I didn't die and I made it through and felt damn good.
I have officially become addicted to exercise. I didn't go yesterday and felt crappy all day. There is no excuse for me not to go to bed early and get up early to workout. Now that being said when is it too much? When does it turn into a bad thing? I should be happy my addiction has moved from food to exercise but I get worried. Maybe I am thinking too much about it and need to do what feels good and stop worrying. Thats what I am going to do stop worrying and just do what feels good.
This morning I took a look at myself in the mirror for the first time in years and actually felt pretty damn proud of what my body looks like right now. It is no where near my goal but I can only imagine how I will feel then. I can see and feel bones I haven't in a long time and it is so exciting for me. It is unbelieveable . I really didn't think Id notice so soon. I figured it was going to take my brain a lot longer to catch up. I swear during that first week after surgery I was cursing myself for doing this and now I wouldnt change my decision for 10 bad weeks. It was the best decision I could have made. My 2nd best decision was hiring my personal trainer. Honestly every other trainer I have done the free sessions with have annoyed me and just didn't listen to me and what I wanted. He did and is very down to earth and not a snob... I finally have been taught how to do a proper squat and lunge to where my knees aren't swollen and painful the next day. Anyway I will post back soon !!! And I forgot the #'s I weighed myself this morning and weighed in at 236. Oh yeah baby!!! 82 lbs since I started this journey and 47 lbs since surgery 3 months and 1 week ago... I am so pleased.

3 months post op

I can't believe it has been 3 months already. Time has flown right by. I am 242 lbs and have lost 41 lbs since surgery and 76 since I began this journey. I have almost completely stopped emotional eating , I still have a moment once a month -damn period! But for the most part it is gone. I replaced it with exercise. If I have an urge I will pop in a video or hop on the treadmill before thinking twice.  Even if it is only a 20 min workout by the end I no longer want what I was going for. I still eat protein, eggs and cheese. I have now added in vegtables 1/2 cup cooked a day and starting next week I can add a 1/2 cup of fruit back a day. I don't eat veggies everyday. Some days I just don't want them. I started my gym membership this month and boy did I need it. I was getting so bored. I also signed up with a personal trainer this week. I am so excited for this next chapter in my life. To be healthy and a good role model for my two beautiful daughters.

7 Weeks Post Op!!! VSG

I am doing great!!! First of all my surgery was on 7/22/13. I had the Vertical Sleeve done and also 2 hernia repairs. The first week was the worst but as the weeks went on It got better. Day 2 after surgery was awful. I was nauseous and in so much pain I didn't want to move. I felt so bad because this was the day everyone wanted to come up and visit me and I just didn't want visitors. I did a little regretting that day but none ever since that day. I was off work for 2 weeks and went back part time for the 3rd week. By week 4 I was great and able to work full time again. Lets start with my #'s: SW: 318 12/12, SW: 283 7/13, CW: 257 9/13 I have lost 26 lbs since surgery and a Total of 61 lbs since I began this journey. I honestly have to say I am so happy I got this done. I know that some people say its the easy way out but it is not . I am working just as hard if not harder since surgery. I cant just sit around and slack off thinking the lbs will just shed off. It doesn't work that way. I eat between 600-1000 calories a day. I noticed that the days I work out I eat more. I can eat about 3 to 4 oz of protein at a time and feel full for at least 5 hours. I don't have the hunger like I use to and I have begun learning how to control my urges to eat. I am retraining myself and I love it. I do get tired a bit more easily now but its nothing a few extra hours of sleep can't fix. I have been working out (walking and aerobics) between 4-6 days a week for at least 30 mins but most of the time it is almost an hour. I can't wait to start at the gym again and switch up some stuff cause I am getting a little bored. Food wise I am still only allowed Meat, Cheese and Eggs. Next week I can start adding a 1/2 of cup of non-starchy veggies to one meal a day. Looking forward to that. No fruit for a bit and no milk. I have "cheated" once or twice but in moderation. It hasn't been anything horrible just a cookie or chip. I went to my first support group meeting and after that I stopped cheating. It really kick me in the butt and I was able to get back on the straight and narrow again.

Been a While !!! Alot has happened!!

Wow reading those old posts reconfirms my decision this past 6 months. I have decided to have Weight Loss Surgery. Dec 10th was the beginning of this journey. Met with a surgeon went over my choices and chose to have surgery. I am having Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy (VSG) on July 22nd.
When I started in December I weighed 318 these past 6 months I have been eating a doctor supervised diet consisting of 6 small meals a day each meal must have a protein in it. Exercising about 3 to 6 days a week about 30 mins at a time.  I am now down to 297!! I went through all the ropes to get approved through my insurance , pschy evaulation , sleep apnea testing- I have severe sleep apnea , cardiologist screening etc... And 6 months of doctor visits. If your not familiar with VSG the doctor will be taking out 80% of my stomach along with that the hormone ghrelin which is what makes you feel hungry. I will have to retrain myself to eat and eventually be able to eat about 1000 to 1200 calories a day. Everyone says the 1st month is the hardest due to the restrictions on food and your body feeling warn down. I am preparing myself for that now. Family has been pretty supportive, they still question me and ask why so drastic and all i can tell them is that I feel it in my heart that this is what I need to do. To be healthy and active. I feel if I continue to let myself be this way I will not live to see my daughters get married. I am having a mixed amount of emotions right now myself , I go from being excited to nervous to anxious to doubting all in a week. But I figure this is normal when you are making such a big decision in your life.

New beginnings!!!

Well back at it!!!! Herbal life was my first shot..... down hill.  It was too expensive and for some reason I just couldn't stay on it. I am just not able to get my attitude adjusted to motivate myself again. 12/26 2010 I started weight watchers and registered to for my very first 5k. Was motivated and lost over 50 lbs. Worked out twice a day and stuck to my points ...... Where is that motivation again!!!!! I am so depressed and can't for the life of me snap out of it. Weight Watchers really worked kept me on target and motivated me and kept me accountable. I am going to try it again...... and start my working out again. I am going to register for a 5K again in May and hopefully this will get me motivated. I am recruiting my co-worker this time and we are going to help motivate each other. I will be beginning everything on 10/15. DON'T JUST SET A GOAL.... CRUSH IT!!!!

Oh Herbal LIfe

Ok so it's been a few days since last blogging. I lost touch for a few days. Sometimes I seriously feel like an addict. Food is my drug. I can go a few days feeling fine without certain things and then BAM can't stand it and have to have the chips and crap. It really doesn't help that my husband isn't on with me and the herbal life.
I still love it but if I can't stay on it and follow the plan for a whole week then what's the point. I was doing so good with the weight loss too. It's just me I sabotage myself every time. Ahhhh.
So I am going to try and prepare better and make sure I am eating every 2 hours instead of 3. My uncle is taking herbal life and he said that really helps him with the urges to eat.
I really wish everyone who views these posts would please leave feedback, let me know what you think.

Day 3 Herbal Life

Day 3 still feeling good! Getting a little bored with the shakes but not too bad. It is making my breakfast and Dinner much easier and I get more done around the house. Energy is still there, today however I have a little bit of a headache. I not only started this but also took my soda pop out of my daily drink and just drink my herbal life tea and water. So I am wondering if the headache is due to that. The Herbal tea does have natural caffeine in it but not sure how much.
Before when eating healthy and trying to lose weight my weigh in days were Mon,Wed and Fri only to keep me motivated through the week  and on top of my eating over the weekend. Today being Wednesday I weighed in at 309 (I just noticed I never stated my beginning weight in any of my blogs-7/30 beginning weight 311) so that was definately a motivation. I left home feeling like I am doing something right!!! AND TO KEEP IT UP!!!   I am trying not to weigh in so much but I really do it for motivation not because I am obsessed with it. I have noticed today that I feel a lot less bloated in my stomach area. I haven't had much gas either. I know gross but I was so gassy for the last few months and now it is practically not at all. That for me is a very good improvement.